Why Does a Fat Life Matter Less?

I am fat.
I feel the need to use the disclaimer here before my comments are “you’re not fat, you’re beautiful”: I am not insulting myself. FAT IS A DESCRIPTOR, NOT AN INSULT. I am fat, that is a fact. the negative connotations of the word are all (hu)man made, and currently many plus size, body positive creators are choosing to reclaim the word. so yes, I am fat. get over it.
Also a disclaimer, this post has nothing to do with books. But this blog is my platform so today I’m choosing to post about this.

I feel the need to talk about this right now. It’s partly spurred by a friend of mine here on the internet getting LITERAL DEATH THREATS for speaking out against a toxic fatphobic audio on TikTok. It’s also partially because I commented on that video and my DMs are flooded by fatphobic attacks, and I’ve also been dealing with hate on my secret tiktok because the bio says I’m fat(I don’t show my face). I also have a Dr’s appointment today which is a thing that is happening and my Dr is fatphobic and I’ve been dealing with some stuff from family too. It’s a lot to be a fat person existing, y’all.

I’m going to address the one public comment, because this person was proud enough of what they said to not hide it in a DM.

I have chosen to not block this person’s handle because they chose to comment this publicly, and their actual name and information isn’t available on their profile. 

Number 1: hi, how are you? Are you okay? Are you unhappy in your body? Why do you feel the need to attack fat women for existing?

Number 2: I don’t owe you this information but I’m going to share it because it’s applicable. I have polycystic ovarian syndrome(which I am handling, so please do not comment “yoga!” or “essential oils”). Because of this, I gained a huge amount of weight in a very short amount of time(while I was going thru puberty too like RIP) which led to yoyo dieting for YEARS. I love your comment because hitting the gym has nothing to do with weight loss. I actually exercise regularly, thank you. PCOS also makes it extremely hard to lose weight, if that was even what I wanted(it isn’t) Anyway, fuck you. This comment did not make me magically not a fat person anymore, SORRY. It actually made a very depressive episode I was dealing with a lot worse, and I slept from 6pm to 7:15am. I also have disordered eating(just because I’m fat doesn’t mean that it’s binging tho!) where I’ve starved myself before during a depressive episode and didn’t eat for 2.5 days. You don’t know anything about me just because you’ve seen my body. 

I also would like to address a duet of my friend’s tiktok video that HAS YET TO BE TAKEN DOWN that is a literal death threat to her. Because she is fat and she chose to speak out. okay, first: go to tiktok, find ethanenglish and REPORT HIS ACCOUNT. over 100 people have reported him, including VERIFIED TIKTOKERS and people with over 1M followers and tiktok has DONE NOTHING. This duet is why this post is titled what it is. I’ve seen duets like this going around. Threatening death to those in minority communities like gay, Black, fat, etc. So what is it, internet, about a fat girl celebrating and loving herself that you feel so threatened by? Are you truly that insecure? That a thing like this that DOESN’T AFFECT YOU makes you so angry?

I am done. I am done with not speaking out because of other people. I am done with not showing my body on the internet because my rolls and stretch marks and cellulite and FAT STOMACH might offend someone. I try to be so goddamn respectful on the internet, but I am done. I’m still a hufflepuff so I’ll probably still be nice but GODDAMN I BOUGHT A TWO PIECE AND I KIND OF WANT THE INTERNET TO SEE THAT CHARACTER GROWTH IN ME!!

This post is a bit all over the place. But. I gave an explanation because I felt like I had to. Now I’m going explain why that is screwed up.

fat people do not owe you an explanation for you to afford them basic human respect.

fat people do not owe you healthy eating for you to afford them basic human respect.

fat people do not owe you working out for you to afford them basic human respect.

fat people DO NOT OWE YOU ANYTHING FOR YOU TO AFFORD THEM BASIC HUMAN RESPECT

fat people do not owe you an explanation for them LOVING THEMSELVES.

Sit down. You look like an idiot.

I was going to apologize for this post and my anger but I’m not going to. I am not sorry for existing and taking up space.

That’s it. That’s the blog post.