Can We Ever Get to the Bottom of Reality? — An Artistic Adventure

  I’m not saying “creating your reality” isn’t a thing. In fact, I saw my cognitive shifts changing my circumstances and things moving. But I’m not putting all my trust in it. I would rather live in a more surrendered way, giving credit to The Source of Life instead of taking credit for myself.

      What I’m getting at is that my big life lesson over these last few months (or years really) has been that I don’t really know anything.

I have bounced back and forth between the polarity of belief systems leaning hard to one side then swinging hard to the other like a pendulum. Now I rest more in the middle, neither believing nor unbelieving.

       It’s not something you can easily put into words, that’s the whole gist of this piece, words can’t explain everything.

This piece is about logic and reason, a cognitive skill, part of our intelligence! The ability to connect ideas while involving our personal perspective. I’m doing it now while trying to explain this piece.

What I am finding is that no amount of logic or reasoning could bring me to any conclusions, at least ones that last into the next phase of life with all its new perspectives and experiences.

Recently someone said it so well, he said, “My whole life has been a series of realizing I was wrong in my thinking.” I resonate with that!

I wrote a poem while in the moment as I was painting, it goes like this:

  “Reasoning and logic; pros and cons. It doesn’t matter how many times I go over it in my mind or from what angle I approach it, the only fact I can wrap my head around is that nothing can be controlled.”

And another poem on the piece which goes like this:

“The heart and the brain 

The compass and the weathervane 

Seem to all be insane 

        Spinning 

            Spinning 

                 Spinning”

     You really could drive yourself mad trying to get to the bottom of reality and find answers to every question. For each of us, it’s a matter of coming to terms with our own beliefs in our own head. You cannot force yourself to believe something you don’t, weather true or false. Where does mental health come in? Where is a safe place for our mind to rest? I certainly have my own answers, but even those answers are surface level compared to all I don’t understand. 

      There’s a lot of things that we will never know, perhaps we’re not meant to. Straining one’s brain to comprehend the “uncomprehendable” may not be the safest place to reside long term. It’s fun to speculate or to watch answered prayers and make conclusions, it’s even a safety net for some to look to religion to give us answers we can trust and rely on. But ultimately it is a personal discovery. An awareness of trial and error, looking to results and consequences to navigate our mental health.