I’m Writing This Title Before I Write This Post & I’m Crying Already
I never thought I would ever write this post.
It feels all kinds of sad, but it also feels like something I should have seen coming a long time ago.
I’ve been blogging for nearly ten years. for a time, it was all I had. Nothing was more important. This blog and books kept me alive.
But I think I’d be lying if I said that my heart has been in it recently. Don’t get me wrong: I love this blog. It was so right for so long, and it’s okay for it to not be right for me anymore.
Change is a part of life. It’s the only constant. I took this last weekend for my mental health and when I finished the book I was reading the last thing I wanted to do was review it. Some books are easy to review, but for some it feels like writing the same review over and over again with different wording.
I’m not saying there is anything wrong with reviewing. But I need to remember how to truly enjoy a book with no pressure. No need to set aside an hour after finishing it to write a review. No need to put off finishing it because I don’t have time to write a review. 2020 has been absolutely insane. It’s been one of my worst mental health years.
I’m working full time for the first time this year, and I want to feel like I’m reading because I want to, not because I have to. It was all I had for almost 7 years. But I have more now. And I need to reframe it’s healthy place in my life.
This blog has given me so much joy. It makes me so sad to let it go, but I know it’s the right thing for me to do right now. So I’m retiring. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t crying while writing this. Blogging has brought me so many friends, and has kept me alive. But it isn’t a fair use of my time or fair to y’all for me to force myself to continue when my heart isn’t quite in it anymore.
So in the future… I’m still on Twitter. I’m still going to talk about books. I’m on TikTok. I still love you all and value every single one of you. But this is the correct decision for me right now.
Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for 9.5 amazing, wonderful, bookish years.
