Every week I have supervision with my supervisors to talk about my week in internship. Last week we were talking about lessons and adapted lessons and how our main goal and philosophy is to foster the love of music. I started to think about how that pertains to me as an individual and what that means in music therapy and as a facilitator. We think about it so much in the context of our clients but how do I foster the love of music for myself as I go through this internship. Burn out is real and very prevalent in fields like this where we work with people in health care. How do I stave off burn out and make sure that I continue to love music in and outside the context of work. These are some of the ways.
Making music with others
Bluegrass festival
About a month ago, I went to the bluegrass festival in New Salem, IL. I had been once before, but that was at least 6 years ago. When I had gone before, I had so much fun and got to see so many cool instruments and watch so many talented people come together and perform. I had been wanting to go back for a while, but didn’t really have the chance when I was away at school.
At the festival, people just bring their instruments and anyone can join. There are clusters of people throughout the site. Most groups of musicians there already know each other and play together outside of this event. I knew I wanted to write about this event so I wrote down every cool thing I saw and got to do. By the time I got there, many people had already left, but below are the instruments I saw. I had hoped to see a Hammered Dulcimer but I didn’t see one.
- Banjo
- Fiddle
- Guitar
- Harmonica
- Mandolin
- Stand Up Bass
- Steel Guitar
- Steel Slide Guitar
- Spoons
- Tennessee Music Box
As a musician it fills me with excitement to see and learn about instruments I have never seen before, like the Tennessee Music Box. Doing some research, it turned out to be a part of the Dulcimer family. It is a box with soundholes with a fretted neck on top of the box. The one I saw only had one string. From my google search they seem to be homemade. Seeing homemade instruments was also not uncommon at the event. I saw two homemade Stand Up Basses. One was hand carved and collapsible and the other was a large tree branch with a tuning peg drilled into it that sat on a metal basin with one tuned string.
I had wanted to bring my guitar and join in but I am not super well-versed on bluegrass music and didn’t think I was a good enough guitarist to do so. Most of the musicians out there just know the songs by memory or pick it up when whoever picks the song calls out the key. I ended up singing and harmonizing to the songs they were playing, whether I knew them or not. I have always been quick at picking songs up or at least predicting the melody.
One of the gentlemen there found out I am a music therapist and that I play the guitar so he offered to let me play his guitar. I had never played a steel guitar before so I jumped at the chance. I was just noodling around and testing to see how easy it would be to barre on the guitar when they noticed. They told me that none of them play barre chords and that it was laughable that I thought I wasn’t good enough to bring my guitar.
At this point the event was ending and everyone was putting away their instruments. I was still messing around and decided to play one of the songs in a book this gentleman owned. Next thing I knew everyone had taken their instruments out and started playing with me. It was amazing and not something that I’ll forget anytime soon. They even asked me if I wanted to join them when they meet once a month to jam out.
Enjoying music in different modalities
Dancing
A couple weeks back, the community theater my dad is involved in hosted a one night only dance class. I love dancing but I have never taken classes. It was for charity and my partner said he would go with me, so we did. The dance that night was East Coast Swing. Although I have never taken a dance class, I was taught East Coast Swing by my grandfather at a young age. It is something that is very special to me. All my life he has saved me dance and since he is no longer in the health to save me that dance, getting to do this made me feel connected to that part of myself. I also got to share the love of this dance that I have been doing since I was five or six with my partner. Plus there was a live big band there playing swing music. I love big bands and I love swing music so it just made the night even better.
My partner and I were not the greatest dancers but we definitely had the most fun. All feet survived the night without being stepped on too badly. We danced and laughed until my face turned red and I had to sit down. It was a nice reminder that music can be enjoyed outside making it and performing. Also only having a short time, challenged my need to be perfect at everything on the first try and to instead lean into the fun of it all.
Listening for fun
The Life Of A Showgirl
Recently Taylor Swift’s new album came out. I rarely listen to music outside of the context of work. I spend so much time listening to music that I need to learn or familiarize myself with that I don’t listen to much for my enjoyment. It has gotten to the point that listening to new albums can feel like a job. Although I don’t seem to be on the majority of this one, I loved the music. I started listening to it outside of my time in the car. I realize there are so many different albums from different artists that I never got around to listening to in its entirety. As I work to enjoy listening to music for just the sake of enjoyment, I hope to catch up on some.
Some things I want to get back to
Making music for myself
Since high school, I have had assignments where I had to write music, whether for music theory, a songwriting unit, or internship. While I have a love hate relationship with songwriting, somewhere along the way I stopped writing music for my enjoyment. That is not to say that I don’t enjoy writing songs for my clients, but it is no longer a leisure activity or a way to express myself. Sometimes it can feel like I have used up all my creative energy at work and by the time I have any downtime I just want to turn my brain off instead of doing anything creative.
My thoughts
The ways we enjoy music and beyond is how our clients enjoy music. I think it is important to experience music in different ways to better understand our clients and the role that music plays in their life.
Making sure I continue to love music will be an ongoing mission throughout my life as a professional and as a person. I don’t think I’ll ever not love music but I could see it becoming more of a job and less of something I enjoy. Our connection and love for music is part of what makes us good at our job and successful. I never want to lose that.
