On Choosing Myself – ItsJaiMarie

6/29/26 – Journal Entry

I’ve been thinking… and I pray that every woman learns to see herself through the eyes of love and compassion.

Ever since the weeks leading up to my birthday, I’ve been in such a reflective space. True introspection. Just thinking about the little girl I once was, and all the versions of myself I’ve had to grieve to become who I am today. To become this free. I had another moment earlier where I realized I feel joyful, at peace, and content. Is everything perfect? Absolutely not. But it doesn’t need to be. And that’s the beauty of life and having internal joy and peace. Everything doesn’t have to be perfect for you to feel ok.

I’ve made the decision that I will not be dating for the foreseeable future. I love the woman I am when I’m single. I’ll always be a lover girl, but I’m uninterested in pursuing romantic connections in any capacity. My life revolves around me, and I love that truth. I believe that I will connect with my life partner in divine timing. Despite the absence of romantic relationships, my life is not lacking in love at all. I am also cultivating a deeper relationship and sense of self-love within.

I pray this for every woman.